Still Ruminating

Still ruminating.  Sh*t, this New Leaf Guy thing.

A part of me feels like I've already wasted way too much of my life and energy on him.  Another part of me knows that I really liked him.  And I was angry, very angry because it didn't seem like he was interested enough.  I thought he was starting to treat me like garbage.  I felt like he was screwing with me (and perhaps he was to try to get a reaction, as revenge, whatever other possibilities).  Male friends have told me that they do things to get a reaction in order to see if a woman cares.  I don't think anyone should try to make someone else want to kill.

I don't know why, but I don't get the sense he is screwing with me now.

Do I want to get sucked into this again?  No.  Does part of me still like him?  Very likely.  Am I still angry about things that happened months ago?  No, a lot of time has passed; I know what he did, but I don't feel the fury anymore.